Monday, December 31, 2007

Life Is a Bitch...

A common answer among friends when we ask each other how’s life? I say life is certainly a bitch and she sure has a lot of puppies. Each with a color and personality of its own. No one knows which puppy is gonna turn around and nip at you when you least expect it.

Some say life is beautiful. Agreed, for those of you who don’t have to deal with the daily grind of trying to make ends meet or who have nothing to worry about but what to wear to the next high profile page three party, life certainly is beautiful. The ugliness is hidden behind the tinted screen of your car windows which block the view of the child from the slum dying due to hunger.

The myriad hues and colors akin to the reflection of a rainbow in a puddle of water seem meaningful to those freshly in love. Life to ‘em lovers is certainly rosy, holding a promise for a tomorrow full of joy and love.

Then there are some of us living on the borderline of sanity and insanity, cynical about most things, trying to portray a facade of all being hunky dory while loneliness and uncertainty gnaws at our soul softly and steadily, just like the winter creeping in leaving one cold and numb. We laugh and smile ensconced in our glass houses, careful not to let our weaknesses seep through the cracks lest someone notices them. We refuse to bend down to what life throws at us knowing fully well it is going to get harder, tougher and lonelier. But that’s what keeps all of us going. Our attitude to life n her puppies; love ‘em, hate ‘em, kick ’em or pet ‘em, you get only what you think you don’t deserve!

Friday, November 16, 2007

Make a difference

After long break I am here again with some of my thoughts. We all have read/hear this thought and somewhat way we appreciated it also…
“Measuring our life by, what others do for us, may disappoint us. But if measured by, what we do for others, will add meaning to it. Make difference in others life.”

Have we ever think more than our expectation……..answer comes yes & no, am not pointing anyone but I am just evaluating myself…..I feel blessed to have nice family loving parents & caring brother. Last week during free hours I was thinking that we feel happy when we get the treatment we want and when things would not, we feel sad/unhappy. What my concern is why we have limited ourself in such boundaries?? Because what are our expectations would not be satisfied 100% when it is incomplete you may not feel that peace, these will brings complains and stressed into you. But if you think other way; what you did for other, even if you have not did all your attempts then also you will get the satisfaction of doing something for someone. That will give you satisfaction of your being on earth and this will give opposite person a sign of support & care that someone is there for him/her when they need.
You & I are small human being not a great saint, do at your level and feel the difference in other’s life as well as in yours. Nothing much but internal peace in soul will surely comes……..I experience this and share with you.
Wish you all the happiness & peace

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Put 'me' first

I recently realized that life does not have to be this complicated. It is like that because that’s what we make of it, we are so busy worried about what people think; we are worried about our responsibilities towards our parents, our kids, our spouse etc that we have forgotten how to enjoy the simple pleasures of life. We forget to put ourselves first. Friends, love etc have taken a back seat to what society demands of us.

I have realized that when I am happy my behaviors towards the people who are linked to me is different. After all how can I be sweet to anyone when I feel deprived? How can I love the world when I don’t feel loved?

‘Put me first’ is my new motto. If you don’t have time for me, no problem! I have lots of time for myself and I will use it doing the things I love doing and generally making myself happy.

My destiny is in my hands and its time I started shaping it.

Friday, June 22, 2007

May I know the answer!!!!

Yesterday I asked my cousin brother what his dream.........
He replied "to be very rich"

Its not an odd answer even if you ask anybody - what their dream?
answer is invariably-
Great career success
Good at work and liked by colleagues....
list goes on mostly on the professional frontier
Why we don't have goals like
I want be a great brother
I want to be a great sister
I want to be a great husband/Wife
I want to be a great father/mother
I want to be a great lover
No consideration for emotions
Why we don't have any personal goals in life
We have goals which are totally professional?

Please let me know the answer.......

Thursday, May 17, 2007


I enjoyed these lines and thought of sharing the same with you all....

You come to me from the darkness
With no voice, but many a word
You help to fill these empty hours
With friendship that's unheard.

Although sometime I cant hear you
I can see your caring soul
And thank you for the times we've shared
Into my heart you stole...

So take these words of friendship,
With my thoughts and hold them near
Cause friends like you are hard to find
And very, very dear....

It is for you all ... my dear friends. Life would not be same without all of you...
Gaurav Aggarwal..... Geetanjali...Srishti..... Gauri.... Gaurav Luthra.... Garima.... Girish... Gurpal..... Ratika..... Ankit... and many more....

Have you noticed that most of them are G's :)

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Rahul Dravid -- 'The Logical Wall'

People asking why Sehwag is in the team..? and everybody knows becoz of Dravid. I will tell you the logic behind Sehwag inclusion in the team.

Generally, a weak player will be under scanner (right now sehwag is under scanner). After Sehwag's name, next name comes Dravid who is not performing well (either cap or player). If Sehwag is removed then next name is Dravid who will be under scanner. So, Dravid knows very well that as long as Sehwag plays Dravid is safe.... This is called logical wall...

Thanks to rain God now the ODI series is over. :)

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Search is ON.....

What is it that I am here for? For quite some time now, I have been thinking about my purpose of life.

I am a very practical and scientific person. Because of that, my rational thinking brain (hope it is somewhere there and still working) says that I can search provided I know what I am looking for.

Alice asked the Cat, “Which door should I take?”. The Cat replied, “That depends on where you want to go”. (You guessed it right. From Alice in Wonderland)

When I don’t even know what I am searching for, it is near impossible to know the outcome. But then, the mystery of life is what keeps the (wo)mankind kicking.

I haven’t given up. I will try once more than the number of times I feel like giving up. The Search is ON…

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Finally got the answer....!

Here to Blame for India's Ugly Exit from World Cup..............!

Refreshing the history,

Two most powerful personalities one from past history and other from recent history,

Indira Gandhi ( for creating Bangladesh) and Hanuman .... (Not destroying Lanka completely):D:D:D:D:D

Friday, February 23, 2007

Mr. Lonely

Date : 23-Feb-2007
Swiped-In time in office.: 8:00 AM
current Time : 9:00 PM
Work Load : Not Much
Place to go : No where
Person To talk : No one

Was just browsing and found this :

When Christ said: "I was hungry and you fed me," he didn't mean only the hunger for bread and for food; he also meant the hunger to be loved. Jesus himself experienced this loneliness. He came amongst his own and his own received him not, and it hurt him then and it has kept on hurting him. The same hunger, the same loneliness, the same having no one to be accepted by and to be loved and wanted by. Every human being in that case resembles Christ in his loneliness; and that is the hardest part, that's real hunger.


Hi, a friend of mine has sent this article to me, which i found worth reading and thought of sharing with you all. Hope you will enjoy reading this.

One Extra Bed Room !!! This is worth reading

As the dream of most parents I had acquired a degree in software Engineering and joined a company based in USA the land of braves and opportunity. When I arrived in the USA, it was as if a dream had come true. Here at last I was in the place where I want to be. I decided I would be staying in this country for about Five years in which time, I would have earned enough money to settle down in India. My father was a government employee and after his retirement, the only asset he could acquire was a decent one bedroom flat. I wanted to do some thing more than him.

I started feeling home sick and lonely as the time passed. I used to call home and speak to my parents every week using cheap international phone cards. Two years passed, two years of Burgers at Mac Donald's and pizzas and discos and 2 years watching the foreign exchange rate, getting happy whenever the Rupee value went down. Finally I decided to get married. Told my parents that I have only 10 days off and everything must be done within these 10 days. I got my ticket booked in the cheapest flight. Was jubilant and was actually enjoying shopping for gifts for all my friends back home. If I miss anyone then there will be talks.

After reaching home I spent home one week going through all the photographs of girls and as the time was getting shorter I was forced to select one candidate. In-laws told me, to my surprise, that I would have to get married in 2-3 days, as I will not get anymore holidays. After the marriage, it was time to return to USA, after giving some money to my parents and telling the neighbors to look after them, we returned to USA. My wife enjoyed this country for about two months and then she started feeling lonely. The frequency of calling India increased to twice in a week sometimes 3 times a week. Our savings started diminishing. After two more years we started to have kids. Two lovely kids, a boy and a girl, were gifted to us by the almighty. Every time I spoke to my parents, they asked me to come to India so that they can see their Grand-children. Every year I decide to go to India. But part work part monetary conditions prevented it. Years went by and visiting India was a distant dream.

Then suddenly one day I got a message that my parents were seriously sick. I tried but couldn't get any holidays and thus could not go to India. The next message I got was my parents were passed away and as there was no one to do the last rights the society members had done whatever they could. I was depressed. My parents were passed away without seeing their grand children. After couple more years passed away, much to my children's dislike and my wife's joy we returned to India to settle down. I started to look for a suitable property, but to my dismay my savings were short and the property prices had gone up during all these years. I had to return to the USA. My wife refused to come back with me and my children refused to stay in India. My 2 children and myself returned to USA after promising my wife I would be back for good after two years. Time passed by, My daughter decided to get married to a American and my son was happy living in USA.

I decided that I had enough and wound-up every thing and returned to India. I had just enough money to buy a decent two bed room flat in a well developed locality. Now I am 60 years old and the only time I go out of the flat is for the routine visit to the nearby temple. My faithful wife has also left me and gone to the holy abode. Sometimes I wondered was it worth all this? My father, even after staying in India, had a house to his name and I too have the same nothing more. I lost my parents and children for just ONE EXTRA BEDROOM.

Looking out from the window I see a lot of children dancing. This damned cable TV has spoiled our new generation and these children are losing their values and culture, dressing sense because of it. I get occasional cards from my children asking I am alright. Well at least they remember me. Now perhaps after I die it will be the neighbors again who will be performing my last rights. God bless them. But the question still remains, 'Was all this worth it?' I am still searching for an answer.

Life is short so live one day at a time.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

New Year -- Time for resolutions

In 2007 I resolve to:
- Save money!
- Clean my closet… and not wait for spring.
- Stay at home whenever I am in Home .
- Exercise regularly!
- Be nice to people, even the one’s I can’t stand.

In 2007 I resolve not to:
- Watch more than 2-3 movies a month.
- Be rude to people.
- Have impossible crushes!
- Over work myself and be mindful of the fact that there is life outside work.
- Eat junk, but eat a whole meal.

Making a lot of resolutions so that I can keep atleast some of these.:D

Looking back

Looking back when I think of my childhood, I feel those were the best days of my life. I was so happy, playful and so innocent. Life was so easy too...studies and games, life revolved around those mainly.I enjoyed my studies, loved my school and scored the highest...what more could i ask for. Well, i did ask for somethings occasionally...i wanted to grow that i wouldn't be scolded anymore, so that i would have a say too,on where to visit during family trips and most of all i wanted to become a fine engineer.
Time passed and soon i was no more a child. But along came the responsibilities, the realisation of harsh realities and a few broken dreams in the path of life.And soon enough a realisation dawned on me. I felt life always look at its best in retrospective.
When we are little ones... we dream of growing up, when we are at college.. we dream of passing out and getting jobs, when we are single.. we dream of meeting our dream persons, when we are married..we dream of being parents, when we are parents..we dream of seeing our children reaching new milestones...and so on life goes on.

Then one fine day when we are old, and we look at our old photo albums and think of those old memories..we wish..we could have it all back..we wish we could go back and be a child once again, we wish we could be young and carefree once again....and hence Life always looks so pretty and nice in retrospective. We live on each day, and the feelings and emotions which come along do not jolt us enough as they do when we look back and find them locked in our memories...Life! Oh what a strange Life..!

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

First Onsite Call

I'm going to take my first onsite call today. I'll be the only one developer attending it. Being a fresher, this is giving me the creeps. I have jotted down the questions that I want to ask. Hope everything goes well. Keeping my fingers crossed. :)